Wednesday, February 17, 2010 @ 8:11 pm
frustration peaks. grandma in hospital= chaos. pushing of responsibilities here and there.
china relatives here= troublesome. didn't have a good chinese new year. u guys know my temper. i see people i don't like i show it on my face. i dun hide my dislike and disgust. something happened where i almost lost it. but i reined in. didn't end up slapping or scolding that idiot. anyway everything was very frustrating. i ended up having lunch at grandparents' rooftop garden alone. sorry, but i'm not ready to just forgive and forget. frankly speaking, i still have a lot to learn about forgiveness. i should learn to be truly nice. lol.
nice things that happened:
1) mani/pedi wif sis last night. i now have strawberry fingernails. and black toenails, big toes full of flowers LOL
2) love sitting next to grandma. holding her hand. giving her foot massage. feeding her. and i felt so so so so so so so so so happy when she stroked the back of my hand when i was holding hers! =D hahahahahahaha. i was so touched XD i loooooooooooooove my grandparents!
8 days till i get away.
need to sort out my thoughts