Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 2:43 am
awake at this hour deep into the night. coz against my better reason i drank coffee for dinner. and coz i'm not used to coffee thus not immune to it, thus i'm kept wide awake. and partly coz neighbours came home late at night, made a lot of din, and started hitting the dog once they entered their room. the yelps got me really tortured. i'm at a point where i can't take it anymore. i feel like if i do nothing about it it's as if i'm "letting die". if i take him in, i'd be a nicer owner. i wun hit him. and i'll take care of him well, housetrain him. but what's stopping me from scooping him into my arms is that i wun be able to give him a good, stable home. i can give him a better home than the one he has right now, but i know that when my mum comes and sees him she'll fight with me and get me to give him away. and what happens when i go off for holidays? i can get my friends to take care of him, but school hostel doesn't allow pets, besides i dun like asking favours of people. coz people at this age are no longer as self-sacrificial and unconditional as when they were younger. they want things in return and all, so i dun like it. i'm like all mixed up inside dunno what to do >.<
and i'm not about to pick a fight with the owners telling them what to do coz that's just jumping straight to the jaws of death. it's not as if they are people willing to see reason.
what is worse, allowing him to suffer by inaction, or shortchanging him coz i can't provide the care necessary for it.
oh wait i've got an idea, my classmate wants a doggie, and i think he's capable of taking care of the dog. i should ask him if he's willing to take the dog in. if he is, then maybe i can save the dog by giving it to him, with the crazy owner's permission of course.
AH. writing things down surely helps clear my mind =D
okay that's it. i'll ask my classmate about it asap. cross my fingers.