Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 12:10 pm
am in Indonesia right now. the place that my hometown holds is no longer as comforting as it was before. to be honest, i don't think it's my oasis anymore. hahahaha. but wells, i got back to driving yesterday. lol. took me but a while to get back my driving instincts. lol. went around relatively unharmed, although i had some serious close shaves out there. lol. no to worry though, no accidents so far. and that is a good thing =D hahahahaha.
while i was on the plane heading back to Surabaya, i had a good time and space thinking to myself. and i was looking back on my trip to Singapore, amazed by my friends. what i found most amazing was how despite all these time apart we were still able to connect to each other as if we have never separated before. the bonds were still there, and the deep understanding where words unspoken could simply flow through our eyes, touching the other's heart. when we chatted, we could warm up to each other quickly, and have meaningful, in-depth talks, simply being noone else but ourselves. no walls, no guards. and that is when i truly realised how deep the friendships i've forged with my friends are. i've never taken these rare gems of friendships that we have for granted. and the more i realise how valuable they are, the deeper they become. and as i left Singapore, i left with few worries. coz in that short trip i've managed to catch up with most valuable of friends, and i was left assured that they would do okay. where i realised there were changes happening in them, i know that there are only changes for the better. and each of them sparkle in a uniquely beautiful, charming manner.
and here, too many things are going on at the same time. my mind's running a thousand miles an hour, once again. so many, so many, too many. when all i want is simply to find happiness, an oasis. do people need to make things simpler, or am i over-simplifying, over-idealising things? no idea, baby, no idea. no woman is an island. but no matter how i reconsider, falter, i will not. deal with things, one step at a time. i'm afraid, i'm uncertain, but determined. is this inner strength or strong-headedness?