Saturday, December 05, 2009 @ 11:30 pm
midnight muses. Skip Beat's ending song 'Namida' on loop. somehow the rhythm of the song is very comfortable.
i recall something from Eleven Minutes:
That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without it.
ahh i should stop re-re-re-re-re-re-reading Paulo Coelho books. i should not let one author influence me so much. but i can't help it. somehow his stuffs do make better sense than others'. it gets preachy, but it makes sense. and somehow his books teach me more than adults around me do. his books saved me. i should write an email to thank him. haha.
i want to thank my yoga teacher tmr. i want to thank him for pushing me so hard in class. i do appreciate it. he made me over split lah, that was so overwhelming. HAHAHAHHAA. haven't over-split for so long. and omg my butt ached like mad last week. plus shoulders and neck and everything. i rmb Ms Chan, "pain is gooood" hahahahaha. that was so long ago. sighs. okay. shall stop here. i'm not gonna emo over missing dance. but well. he did make me over exert myself. i sound sadistic, but i like that feeling. okay what happened last week drg yoga was we were supposed to lie down, pull our legs in a central split, and the highest form is that toes touching the floor, which means over 180 degrees. over-split. okay so i was holding onto my feet for dear life, already almost 180 degrees. instructor came over, he pressed down my left leg until my left toes touched the floor. 8 scale MUSCLEQUAKE. my whole body was quaking like never before. he was like 3....2....counting ever so slowly. just when i was biting my lip in ultimate pain-endurance, i did what i thought i'd never do. i pulled my right leg down, and HA! BOTH SIDES OF TOES TOUCHED THE FLOOR!!!!! that was when he counted ONE! he let go of my left leg. i let go of my right leg. and i was like OMG FOR A SPLIT SECOND I ACHIEVED IT!!!! i oversplit!!~~~~ wheeeee!!!!!!! okay dun wince in terror and pain. that feeling was real good. i didn't feel pain for that split second. all i felt was a gush of WOAH washing over me, coz i reached my limit, and went over my limits. so i've pushed myself forward more than ever before. and that is absolutely satisfying. but dun ask me what happens after that. haven't i said before, dancing feels good, but after dancing muscles ache like mad? yeah that's the feeling. no feeling in legs. hahahahaha.
that is what i like most about dancing, about yoga. reaching your limits, then leaping beyond the line.