Sunday, December 13, 2009 @ 7:32 pm
i realise i've become much more flexible lately due to yoga. i never knew it works so well. lol. i went for class too early today. so there it was, just me and an empty studio. hehehehe. i could feel something emerging out of me--the desire to dance. lol. so i drew down the blinds, and danced a little. though it got interrupted by parents' call halfway. but but but but but but. dancing... ahhhhhhhhh. bliss ^^ yes i can't jump as high anymore. but i think i still have my pirouettes right =)) whatsmore, i haven't lost the lyrical quality in my movement. hehehehehe. am happy =)) and i've gotten even more flexible! perfect. haha. how can a dancer ever give up dance? it's the worst torment. i miss dancing on stage. not that i like the limelight. i love the feeling of finding myself on stage. how when i take the first step out from the wing, i forget all that i was, and just become who i am. all the emotions flowing through my body, expressed in every bit of my flesh every inch of my skin. a radiance glowing from the soul. my feet treading upon the softest pastures, moving to the breeze, the sun, the sky, the serenity of nothingness. that is my bit of heaven. in the vastness of this world, my heaven lies on a stage, just dancing with the world gone dark, and the only light is cast upon my little bit of Heaven.
dancing and drama didn't teach me how to act, how to be not who i am. in fact i think they taught me how to find myself, parts of me i've never realised i had. and it helps to be able to play with expressions. comes in handy at times. hahahaha. in my last conversation with Ly and Xiaochen, i blurted out unconsciously, i think we wear more masks in daily life than we do on stage.
ahhhhh. the stage. one day, i'll come back, and paint my heaven.