Wednesday, December 09, 2009 @ 4:08 pm
December Reflections Part I:
as promised. december. end of the year. time to reflect and sort out my thoughts for a bit. somehow being in this godforsaken place devoid of genuine beings makes me feel even more blessed than i ever felt before. i know i say this every year and for so many times that it becomes a little boring. but but, i REALLY do want to thank people who have given me so much love, care and suppport. i feel honoured that i have met the bestest people, really i do. i look around me and i just hang my head in grief, coz there's no one physically close that i can turn to. but as i think of that i also think of other people whom i have met so far in my life. they may not be right here next to me, but even from such a distance i can feel the l....o.....v.....e..... lololol. the world is filled with so many terrible, facetious people, but i have had the greatest fortune to have come to know the bestest people in the world. genuine with a heart of gold. and i haven't found only one person but many people who are just so beautiful. my parents, my sisters, my boyfriend, my friends (i dun use the term 'friend' loosely so if i call u a friend then YEAH you ARE my friend) lol. and i really AM blessed that i have people whom i love and who shower me with love.
this year, i realised that certain people think that if you are close to someone gives u a right to 'abuse' that person. only coz u think that person loves u and will give up anything for you. but that's not love. my cousin asked me once, why do you thank your parents so often? it's not necessary, they're your parents. and i replied to her, precisely because they ARE my parents, i have to thank them for their efforts, even for the littlest of things. because they are dear to me, all the more i have to appreciate them. and after that she shut up. i think at that time i was 12. sometimes people feel that saying 'thank you' is something too formal, but when i do say thank you i really do mean it. and i have so many people that i'm thankful for, and so many things that i'm grateful for. i really am a blessed kid. =)
this year, i've seen how taking loved ones for granted can bring so much pain, harm, destruction. and i don't ever want that to happen to the people i care about. i'm not going to let myself take people for granted. i'm not going to make the same fatal mistakes.
i'm not going to list all the people i would like to thank. coz that would be suicidal, the list is SO long and if even half a name slips me by i think i'd have people coming to hang me. so yeah, you know who you are ;) hahahaha.
so guys,
Thank YOU, really,
for being who you are <3