Saturday, November 28, 2009 @ 11:21 pm
i studied much but studied little today. to get my momentum starting i studied cell biology. lovely. but then i got distracted clarifying my questions for the content. i search for one thing and leads to another and to another and to another. in the end i learnt more than i'm supposed to. but at the same time, i've only covered 1 and a half pages of that chapter. hahahahaha. so how much did i REALLY study? i dunno. but somehow i realised that since IP, i retain more information that i looked up on my own than those given in the book. i have no idea why my brain is so weird. oh wait. i forgot. i'm insane. but i guess i like it this way. though it does take up a lot of time. i've studied little but discovered a lot. i'm a happy bio student. oh wait. that's not my course. who cares.
i realised last night that sometimes being a little insane helps me keep my sanity. been stressed out lately. then last night made a huge racket on facebook with my favourite people. just teasing joking playing going nuts and high around. it was such a beautiful racket!~ spread over 4 countries 3 continents. i officially love facebook now. lolol. and i went to bed last night full of laughter and joy and endorphins, and i guess that's how i kept my sanity. and i remember how my friends and I always go nuts when we're together. laughing like children. so noisy. tsk. but ahhhhhhh. i haven't gone insane for almost a year. and now that i have, i have managed to hang on to my sanity. was at the end of my tethers. but now i realise that this world doesn't make sense. people don't make sense. nothing makes sense. so why behave like i make sense? all hell broke loose, and heaven descended upon me. now i'm happy. join the mad club.
from Veronika Decides to Die:
"insanity is the inability to communicate your ideas. It's as if you were in a foreign country, able to see and understand everything that's going on around you but incapable of explaining what you need to know or of being helped, because you don't understand the language they speak there."
Everyone is indeed crazy, but the craziest are the ones who don't know they're crazy; they just keep repeating what others tell them to.
"That's how it should be with you; stay insane, but behave like normal people. Run the risk of being different, but learn to do so without attracting attention."
I'm not going to spend my time with crazy people who think they're normal and important, but whose sole function in life is to make everything more difficult for others.