Wednesday, May 06, 2009 @ 10:23 am
silvia says hello to the world! i finally have internet access at home although it took me one whole night just to download msn messenger. nevertheless, i'm feeling less lonely with the internet. like ly, i have little access to people my own age. i have to deal with aunties and uncles who ask the same old questions about singapore, indonesia, studies, etc. and the worst question that i hate is, "Do you like Singapore or Surabaya *my city* better?" then i would put on a thoughtful look *hiding my resentment* and would say, "same both ways" and i would walk away, end of conversation. haha.
coming back and helping out in my parents' shop almost makes me an alien to be watched. and the most dangerous lot of people are aunties who are searching for daughters-in-law. the first signs that an auntie is on such a hunt is that they'll look around the shop for some vulnerable young girl for her son(s), and since i'm the only young girl in the shop (though not vulnerable, coz i bite), they'll observe me for some time. if they think they like me, they'll come up to me, and try to make small talk, have a chat, ask if i'm the boss' daughter (yes), ask if i'm attached(no,duh), ask what level of education i'm at(waiting to enter uni), then my age (19). and at this point they become very very disappointed (to my pleasure) that i'm too young for their sons and i'm studying overseas for a very very long time, and since they can't wait to have grandchildren they let me go. and i leave, suppressing a laugh.
there was once, there's this auntie who is very rich. i know she's rich coz she came in a black mercedes (dunnowhat-class) sedan, with her husband and hulky son. and i was helping out in the shop, and too dangerously close to the entrance. she noticed me upon entry, then came up to me, and started stroking my arm!!!!! *horror* and she praises that i'm pretty (yeah right) and bla bla bla, then came the standard conversation above, only she was asking the questions to my dad, while still stroking my arm (faints) and admiring me like i'm a diamond that she'd like to buy. i just kept smiling the whole way through until my father says that i'm the youngest in the family, only 19, and i have a whole uni study ahead of me, then she lets go of me with this look of her face i dunno of what. and i flee for my life, marriage and arm's sake! after she leaves i asked my dad about her and he said that her family is extremely rich (yup i know that even before they entered the shop) and yes, all 3 of her sons are that big and hulky. i immediately made a mental strike of that family. nope, not going to make frens with such hulks, i might be crushed to death somehow.
that's when i know that i've made too much company with people of the older generation for my own good. because i'm starting to seem appealing to aunties and uncles who want to marry their sons off!!!! gosh. i'm supposed to be appealing to guys my age, not to their parents. *faints* and so i went to eat sushi with my cousin and her band of friends. phew, at least i can connect with them, a proof that i'm not getting too old inside.
speaking of which, i'm going to get older next sunday =((((((((((( and since 2 years ago, i've been dreading my birthday. not for the reason of vanity that i'm afraid wrinkles will start appearing and i'll start putting on weight (i'll worry about that when i turn 100) but i know that greater responsibilities with heavier consequences are waiting for me ahead, and there'll be less room for mistakes because the decisions that i have to make in the coming part of the journey will bear greater influence. and if i make the wrong decision, i would have to bear a greater failure. in short, there's less room for mistakes as we grow older. with the passing of each year, the world turns a shade darker.
but otherwise, i'm planning outings with my parents and with my newfound frens *who'll never replace my old frens* for my birthday. i'm missing the pitstop cafe birthday outings, night walks along the singapore river, sushi buffets. but i'm not missing my birthdays spent studying for exams. muahahahaha.