my feet are burning as if they have been dancing on hot coals. i loved ballet lesson today. truly and fully since it's my last lesson before i go back to indo. it would have been wonderful and i would have jumped higher and suspend longer if only my feet are not so damn tired from all the walking that i have done these past few days. since the end of A levels i have been going out almost every day and now i'm dead beat. i wonder if i can even walk in my heels for prom. i'm scared of my 3-inch heels now. it feels as if my callous (which have been there since sec1, when i started serious dancing) are as thick as the height of my heels. i bought so many gel cushioning just in case. i went home, bathed, and soaked my feet in a bucketful of warm water with my sis' body shop foot soak. my feet feel better, but still NUMB. i'm sorry Ms Elaine, i'm so so so so so so so sorry Kwok =((((((((( argh i feel so bad.

now i'm in a dilemma. should i bring my flats home or my wedge or both? plus i'm bringing heels. gosh. i need to decide soon.

ah for the people who know the news, i'm one step closer to wreaking my naming revenge on my brother plus future nephew/niece. but there are many more steps to go. yay my prom dress can be worn TWICE more besides prom. so yes it's value for money, and for all the pain my mum had to go through sewing all those flowers. ok i've thought of the name if i have a niece. now i need to come up with a boy's name in case i have to name a nephew. gosh. any ideas???!!!!! i think i'm thinking too far ahead. my bro's not even married yet, but i'm SO excited to name babies. hahahahahaha. and i've wanted to have a niece or nephew for so long to play with. and if they're naughty i can just hand them back to their parents. TEE HEE ;) i need to start hunting ideas for my dress in case the wedding's next year. I'M SO EXCITED. HE BETTER NOT RUIN ANYTHING OR I'LL WRING HIS NECK. too bad he won't ever see this post and so he won't see this huge threat. the next dress has to be RED!!! ok now i can indulge in fashion once more. i dun like Valentino's red dresses though. hmm. Valentino better not read this either.

ah i read and bought a very nice book today. i'm feeling guilty for buying another book, but it's on sale and it's really nice. and the book talks about how a granddaughter flashbacks to the past in the memory of her late grandpa, Grandpa Gee. Gee is a photojournalist and each time he returns from covering a story overseas, he would have this 'story swap' session with her granddaughter, Maggie. he would produce a picture or something peculiar from the place that he went, and tell Maggie stories. as Maggie grows up he tells stories that are deeper, and layered, matching her increasing maturity level. and because of this story swap session, Maggie takes extra care to be more observant of her environment so that she would have a good story to tell Gee in return. i thought it was a great thing to do. something simple but meaningful, esp for children who loves stories. it's not easy to bridge generation gaps, but stories transcend such boundaries. hmm maybe i'll do that with my future nephews and nieces. haha. i dun want to be unrecognisable to my siblings' future kids. it'll be terrible. i dun want them to just call me Aunt then stare at me with a blank face. i want to play with them, spend time with them, and develop a close bond with them. like i would with my own future kids! (HAHA) i have even planned what i would give my niece (hopefully i'll have one) when she learns how to read in english. haha. it's time that i destroy the fences within my family. and the time is coming =)