Monday, November 24, 2008 @ 8:27 pm
8 days to go and i'm up up and away! i can hardly contain my excitement. haha. many many things to do. many things to see, many evils to witness, many blessings to be grateful for. the world is a whited sepulchre, and the men and women merely skeletons in the closet.
went out with mum today and it always is interesting to window shop with her. had numerous inspirations from which i can start learning to make my own clothes. i can hardly wait to immerse myself in a fabric shop full of fabrics fabrics fabrics. oh the wonderful world of fabrics, all sorts of patterns are popping up in my mind and cuts and designs. if Uncle Scrooge swims in a pool of coins i dun mind swimming in a pool of fabrics. when i was a kid i didn't bother to look at clothes, i just run my hand through the rows and rows of clothes hanging on the racks and feel their softness while my mum and sis will be the ones digging out clothes to try and buy.. oh happiness =D and interesting patterns always catch my eyes although in sec 1 i insisted on wearing black because my english tutor used to wear black all the time and i think she is cool and through some flawed logic i think black is cool too. until now i dun really like to dig for clothes, if u shop with me u know that i'll just take one glance throughout the shop and if there's nothing interesting i'll just go off. i dun really like digging through the mounds of clothing or racks of clothes. and usually my sister is the one who picks out the clothes that i buy. though i have developed my own ability to choose i still rely on her eye.
over the exams and these past few days i have been looking at online stores for nice designs i can try to 'learn from'. and today i went to those shops in orchard to see, feel, touch and ask my mum on how to cut and sew the thing together and she was so totally in touch with her fashion design/ seamstress days. haha. she used to have 50 people working under her, doing all the sewing while she was the one who designs and draws the pattern. she used to teach dressmaking until my 2nd sister was born and now i'm hoping that she will impart her skills to me. it'll be a great waste if the skills that she acquired are not passed down to the next generation. i told her it's unfair that she's keeping all her skills to herself so now i'm getting her to spew it all out. HEHE >.< the same for cooking too. i can't cook anything except whatever gets cooked in the microwave, rice and instant noodles.
my mum tried to teach my sister to make a dress and in the end my sister threw up her hands in despair while my mum turned from teacher to worker. so i got the brunt of my mum's complaints about how my sister has no patience. she keeps telling me that she's not gonna help me make those clothes i have to sew them on my own if i dun have patience dun learn to make later i'll only have a whole lot of undone clothes and please dun choose difficult designs just stay with cloth that's easy to sew. i know the process is terribly arduous, time-consuming and back-breaking, but it is precisely such a terrible process that i choose and want to go through. my choice of nightmare. i can't stop developing myself just because there's no school! i need to move, move bay-beh move! =D i have to develop patience and learn to plan, persevere, surmount difficulties, etc, whatever it takes to make me a better person =D and i'm hoping that through this holiday, i can really develop myself further, as a person. i hope that i can get in touch with whatever artistic ability that i might possibly have. so i'm thrusting myself into the world of the arts. haha. cooking, dressmaking, jewelry making, chinese calligraphy, chinese painting, dance, accounting, sales, here i come! =D oh wait. i have to count in the thousands. hmm. math and mental sums here i come too! =D
so many things to learn in this world. whee!~