I wish I am more artistic, really. I appreciate the aesthetics but can never create one on my own. My drawings are really bad, as bad as leaves that are rotting on the ground. Somehow I haven't written any poems for a long long time. Maybe it's because that I'm uninspired. But I think it's just because i have lack of confidence. Studying lit makes me feel so small and teeny weeny. Then again, writing is about practice. Learning, practising, learning, much like everything else in life. Ah, I need that forgotten madness once again, to have the courage to dare to step forth and embrace life. I think the lack of courage is the reason I'm lagging behind for almost everything I do. Sighs. Need courage, need faith, need that touch of madness. Someone, something out there, inspire me. I've got nothing to inspire myself with anymore.

I need to dance again.

Sighs.

Need to be back on stage.