Since school has started to suppress my endorphin levels, I have been living for the weekend. I guess a lot of people do that, and it just can't be helped. I used to use my weekends for intensive mugging sessions, cramming all sorts of equations and knowledge into my overwhelmed brain. Sometimes I dream of equations or bio drawings at night, and it really sucks. But over these few weekends, I have learned to relax during my weekends to recuperate, but at the same time not compromising on learning. Okay, I do compromise a bit, but not too much. And this weekend is so utterly wonderful, a strange whim came over me, and I did something that I have always wanted to do-- buy flowers. I have always loved flowers, and each time I pass by a florist, or the flower corner in the supermarket, I have this strong urge to grab the most beautiful bunch and place it in my home. Whatsmore, when they have huge sunflowers at the front of the shop, calling out to me, I really feel like bringing one home to admire and to bring a smile to my face. Yet, I have always suppressed this strong desire to derive joy from having a bunch of life flowers in my home. Today, I have succcumbed to it! And I'm so dang proud of it! So now I have a bunch of purplish-pink flowers, of which I dunno its name, but it's just so quaint and peaceful on the dining table, wafting little scents of Nature to my home. Its presence graces my messy house with such a dainty look, almost like an oasis in a sandstorm. Yes, the house looks like a typhoon just went past, but the flowers are just so beautiful I don't really care about the hurricane-swept scene around it.

Best of all, I finally have Enrique Iglesias singing to me from the stereo! Haha. To those who know how MUCH I adore his singing, yes I've finally fulfilled one of my greatest wishes. Yes, after so many years, I've finally bought his English albums, and he sings with such great passion! I just can't help but smile each time I hear his song playing. It doesn't matter where, on the radio, in a shopping mall, restaurant, MP3 player, or whatever else you can play music on. I just feel so blissful listening to the spicy spanish voice =D Ah, I just feel so good! =)

I have decided to concentrate on Literature and GP today, be all English-y and emo on this really nice Sunday afternoon. Oh, and another thought walked into my mind last night. I have been reflecting about how I have been halfway through the education system, and what education really means to me. Since young, my father has been telling me about the importance of having strong morals and integrity while being educated (or schooled). This upbringing is a strong reason of why I really hate it when people are educated but have no morals and basic courtesy. It's as if education has been wasted. Sometimes I really wonder how much of Moral Education taught in primary school do kids really learn from. Being a non-examinable subject and all, it is often overlooked, like Health Education. But I have always treasured these non-examinable subjects, because I believe that they are as wonderfully important as the others. As I inch closer towards taking my A-levels, I have been trying to see through the Everest-sized piles of homeworks and endless tests, to see what education really means. Recently I have gained a better understanding that the subjects that are offered in A-levels are not merely technicalities. Sometimes it's difficult to see it, and I find it especially difficult to see the essence of Science subjects, because they can get so technical and dry at times. Then I slowly begin to understand that these subjects groom a way of thinking and rationalising, and it's not only about calculating no. of moles or knowing how gene therapy works and blurting all of them out during the exams. It's really about how we rationalise things in a way that it can be easily understood. Like in Math, it helps to have a systematic way of thinking. After being in the education system for so long, it's time that we realise the things that really matter, and not only be absorbed in clinching the grades. Holding on to things that last longer, like having an open, rational mindset.