I know I can be jailed for saying this, but seriously, I feel like smacking the Burmese govmt. People are dying out there. HELLLO??????!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR OWN PEOPLE. WHY ARE U TAKING SO LONG TO LET THEM GET HELP?!!!!!! WHAT IF YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S DYING????????????????????????????????? CAN'T YOU SEE? CAN'T YOU SEE? CAN'T YOU SEE? OPEN YOUR EYES BIG AND SEE!!!!

=anguished=

we belong to a generation who in many ways, have to submit to the generations before us. they who put in place society as it is now. generations before us who form the political, social, economical, education systems that are integral parts of our lives. and i'm feeling displaced. i hate the way some things are exercised now, thanks to the decisions of the 'older and wiser' generations before ours. continually, i search of ways and means to break free. to create my own culture, perhaps like how Morrie Schwartz might put it. but there's a price to pay in creating my own culture. pain. deep pain that whenever i try to break through a silly convention, something slams me back.

like how i'm ultimately for saving the animals, and people say animals are not worth saving. sighs. like how i hate the way people think they're 'older and wiser' and try to stamp off those who are younger. come on, i know better, older people are not necessarily wiser, grow up, oldies. and how i'm beginning to turn away from organised religion, yes, buddhism, the one religion i subscribe to. it's a difficult but easy phase. easy because i'm more able to see things in a less restricted manner, and the freedom to borrow from all sorts of beliefs and religious teachings. and now i understand that it's our actions and thoughts that ultimately matter, not our religions. people without religion can still be morally good. so i dun think everyone who dun believe in a certain religion will go to hell. difficult because people from organised religions want to organise me. i call myself a buddhist, but i think of the philosophies as well. i'm a thinking follower, i dun blindly believe in organised teachings. because what i believe will affect what i do and the people around me, i choose to believe in what can help make this world a better place. doesn't mean that helping out in all sorts of indiscriminate organised religious events to promote a certain organisation is a moral thing to do. among many things that i do.

and so, i'm part of the kids who are the bottom layer of the hamburger, trying to make my way out such that i dun need to complement the sesame bun at the top of the layers. there are many principles and beliefs i subscribe to that people dun, either u accept it or u dun. i'm not here to please the whole world.

and gosh, YOUR PEOPLE ARE DYING. PLEASE PLEASE HELP THEM. CAN U HEAR ME? HELP THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!! DOESN'T MEAN THAT WHEN U'RE NOT SUFFERING OTHERS ARE ENJOYING THEMSELVES TOO!!