Tuesday, March 18, 2008 @ 5:07 pm
holidays did not cure my panda eyes. i think it's getting even darker now. sighs. maths test was so horrible. and i'm like emo-ing so much i have no mood to do anything. sighs sighs. am homesick. want to eat tahu goreng, risoles, lemper, dll. been thinking of going back and spending more time with my parents and grandparents. go out with my brother and cousins. do stuffs, u know. the greatest regret of all is the regret of not expressing love. and if, if i lose any1 when i'm not there, like what happenened the other time, again, i might just wither in my regrets too. sheesh. still trying to get over a one-year-old shock. haha. i have serious emotional lag. like my emotional response comes very late.
and now there's this contradictory thoughts in my head. like i know that i did the right thing. but everytime it comes to my mind that i've hurt someone, i just feel terribly terrible about it. i dun regret my actions, but i'm feeling guilty. sheesh. i dunno what's happening to me.
tension of opposites. which side wins?