Thursday, January 17, 2008 @ 4:16 pm
It's going to be a lonely new year. i guess after the CNY celebrations in school, the rest of the 2 days will be a little lonely. won't have much tales to tell when i get back from school break, maybe except i've finished all of my homework? haha. no angbao either. well, not much. haha. this year i'm too lazy and can't be bothered to step out of my house much. haven't gone out to anywhere outside bt timah much since the year began. and i think it might still be so for a pretty long time. not only becoz that i'm j2 now and lots of work need to be done, but also the laziness of meeting the world outside. i rmb that 2 years ago i didn't like being in crowds. guess it's the same thing repeated all over again. the chinese saying is true, 每逢佳节倍思亲. it's at celebratory times that u feel even more lonely. will it be a futile hope to hope that the following festivals for the following years will only get better, and not be even lonelier? no matter what, friends cannot fill the emptiness of your heart. there will always be a large portion that only family warmth can fill. and mine is emptying pretty fast. it's funny that a family can be separated across 3 countries, 2 continents. and u look at the dining table. and u think that, when will u see that table wholly filled? when was the last time each seat was taken? maybe just a few times, such that u can count those times within ur five fingers. how many more lonely new years would i have? =sigh=