Friday, March 10, 2006 @ 11:21 pm
am missing my dad desperately.
dad dad dad dad dad dad dad dad dad.
and now, my greatest wish is to dance for my dad.
mum says he can't come for dance nite.
stupid stupid stupid.
i wud rather stay in indo and be together, rather than be separated by the seas.
i dun care even if ppl rob us.
i dun care even if ppl kill us.
i dun care even if ppl bomb us.
it has been 2 years since the family is completely together.
somehow, one or two family members are not there.
and there's nth i can do abt it.
i dun want to shed tears, i rly dun want to...
but sometimes i juz can't help it.
even tho' my tolerance is getting higher as time goes by, but i can't ignore this irritating feeling inside me.
i study hard to prevent myself from missing them.
i study hard to see the smile on their faces when they read my report.
i study hard so that they wun lose hope.
i study hard to not waste their efforts on me.
i dun study hard for myself.
becoz i find no point studying.
but i will continue, coz i love my parents.
all those tears shall not be shed in vain.
all the hardship they went through, from starting a business right from the scratch to being able to send us to singapore to study.
i have the greatest parents in the world.
they were heavily in debt (becoz ppl razed their shops) when they started their business.
through over 20 years of plain hard work, they raised the name of the shop.
cheap, quality goods.
the smile and patience of my father.
the sheer determination and competence of my mother.
my parents never dreamt of being able to send their children overseas.
they never dreamt of having a branch in the country's capital.
i learn my mom's hardworking spirit, superb mental strength and determination.
i learn from my dad's wonderfully good temper, his patience and his caring heart.
although i'm not as good as them, but i'm learning.
but for now.............. i juz miss them, and all the encouragement they never fail to give me.
i'm not an orphan. but my parents are not with me.
i'm not an orphan.