Tuesday, January 10, 2006 @ 10:09 am
i guess we all noe that grades are not everything. but maybe in the environment we are in, we emphasize more on grades than anything else (which is sad, really.) experienced the tough competitiveness in nanyang, some backstabbing, lotsa faking and stuff like that. so i ran away to nj. and am i glad to be in a lively class after all. so i stay within close proximity of my class and hardly socialise with the other classes. not that i'm anti-social, juz that i feel that i dun want to see the ugly side of other ppl which i had heard abt. maybe i've experienced too much bad stuff and dun want to noe more, i dunno.
my pov is that wad's the point of having good grades if (1) u're hated by every1 (2) every1 ard u is unhappy for some reason or anth (3) u only have grades and NOTHING ELSE. it's really quite pathetic if someone sacrifices everything for grades only. it's STUPID. u can't breathe grades, can't drink grades and can't eat grades. hellloooo wad's the point of a deprived soul but good grades? it's as good as being a zombie! if u want good grades dun compare urself with others, compare with urselves 1st! defeat urself and break new grounds, who cares wad others score. their scores are THEIRS. not urs, so there's no point coveting those grades, only to backstab ur frenz in the end. that's so IMMORAL.
sry, but i hate backstabbers, and i hate fakers. so there.
and anyway, i find it pointless if u're the ONLY one with good grades, and others are struggling and unhappy. i'm the kind who says, "yeah let's have good grades together =)" and "yeah go out and have fun together." it's so pointless to have all the good stuff to urself while others are so unhappy. it seriously makes me sad if others are sad. like, i dun deserve all these good stuff to myself. i'm not trying to sound like a perfect angel. but yeah i'm like that. no point to be happy alone. i want others to be happy TOO.
of course there are times i'm competitive, i compare myself with others. but i compare with control. i dun go crazy and think day and night on how to beat someone or anyth. i prefer to have these ppl as a source of inspiration then an enemy to defeat. having ppl inspire u can drive u to work better and smile at the same time. =))
i think frenz are one of the most impt things in my life. without my frenz i dunno where i'll be now. probably some depression centre or someth. there are many times when u can't talk to ur family. maybe becoz u noe they wun understand, or there is an age gap and stuff like that. i turn to my frenz more often than to my family becoz i feel that they can understand me better.
and i'm super grateful to have such great frenz, who help me get thru each and every single day. they make me WANT to come to school. great fantastic people like Fangyu, Jamie, Kim, Enqin, Ernest, Andrew, Abel,Soph, Ly, Xiaochen and so many more. not necessarily my closest frenz, but their hyperness makes me want to go to school and have fun with them.
i love all my frenz. i really do. i appreciate what u guys have done for me. and i hope that i can do something for u guys too. =) u guys noe i'll be here to listen to anything. so yeah =)) jiayouz and stay cheery.
Believe that the world will always have love, because it would have died long ago if love doesn't exist.