Thursday, January 12, 2006 @ 6:58 am
haiz. feeling a bit confused lately. it's juz so hard to make decisions. maybe i'm juz not a decisive decision-maker. feel that it's such a waste to give up on someth u rly love. but if u're unhappy doing it, then maybe it's worse than not doing what u luv at all. maybe it's not worth it to give it up for those reasons, but it juz feels so bad like that. isn't there anything we can do abt it? maybe not, since the problem has lasted for years, and we are juz, well, out of the crowd. even though i thank goodness for being out of the crowd coz i so dun like that crowd.
i want to return to the past when i'm so truly happy no matter how tough the going was. i juz want to laugh and smile and joke again.
i juz want to truly dance again.
that's all i want.
