Sunday, September 12, 2004 @ 2:31 pm
changed my skin, cleared my tag.
sooo shuang.
btw, this entry will be full of ballet terms that are sometimes incomprehensible.
also, a lot are quite vulgar
so, if u dun feel like getting pissed off or confused than juz skip this entry.
=)
anyway, today's lesson is quite fine.
but something has been bugging me lately.
i injured my back (heal liao lar)
xinyu (senior) dropped out of dance due to her back.
janice (ballet pal) can't dance for a mth due to her knee.
my mum wants me to move to bt timah cc or bt batok cc.
maybe, she wants me to drop ballet grade syllabus.
i was like, ARE U CRAZY?
but of coz i can't say that.
i really hope these aren't bad signs.
all the hard work over the years will be going down the drain.
i dun think anyone except dancers can understand the pain that i have gone thru' to accomplish what i have today.
and becoz i have been slacking since early this year, i have sorta deproved.
and i'm quite upset abt it.
guess that i have to work hard if i ever want to get in western dance.
am getting my pointe shoe nxt week.
doing this all for getting into nj western dance.
for goodness sake, please let me get in.
i'll really cry and die if i don't get in.
not that i'm real good either.
wonder when i can be as good as jing zhi.
i miss her.
so i'm all prepared to undergo the next months of pain with the pointe shoe.
bleeding feet, here i come.
i juz hope i dun sickle my foot and ruin my ankle.
becoz if i do, there goes dancing FOREVER.
sigh.
all the sacrifices we make, all the pain we undergo.
but it's all worth it in the end.
REALLY.
here are the criticism i want to show myself.
1) i can't even do pas de bourre
come on man! it's only back side front, waddeheck!
and i can't even do it, i'm freakily a failure
2)developpe
argh, this sux.
more than 1 year i have been doing this thing and i can't even do a 90-degree.
wad freaking thigh muscles i have.
muz work on it.
3)pirouette
sigh, this freaky one.
i can't even turn out my passe leg.
see, this is another freaking failure.
and i still want to do multiples.
too ambitious....
4) pique pirouette
right, can.
left, CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how idiot can i get
5) grand jete
i can't even jump and split.
waddeheck.
i suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6) pas de bas
how many times did ms joey demo this?
and i CAN'T do it?!
7) expression
sigh sigh SIGH
speechless
8) sautes and changements
i can't even do a proper JUMP
WONDERFUL
9) back
that freaking left back!!!!!!!
do i have a c-spine or wad?!
10) uncountable..........
in conclusion, i need to buck up a hundred times more.
time to stretch every single day aft exams.
=::::(